Ailani Nahara @ailani.nahara

What does Liana Shanti mean to me? How has she helped me to live a better life? It’s so hard to put into words just how much she means to me. From the moment I found her online I instantly knew she was what I didn’t even realize I had been searching for. I had just left my ex and was feeling lost and visionless. I had been using drugs for 6 months straight- something I had never done before. It was always binges for a week or so or weekends, never every single day for 6 months.

I was in a marriage that I wasn’t happy in and knew with every fiber of my being that it was something I shouldn’t have done. (I do understand now why I did it and I don’t hold guilt for my decisions, I learned a lot about how my body is always speaking to me) My body was giving me so many clues and there were so many red flags I ignored. He was showing me all the time. Jealousy, rage outbursts, physical and emotional abuse, violence, and many incidents I knew were not okay. Leaving that relationship was something I had wanted to do for many months before I actually did it. So, why did I stay?

After finding Liana and her programs I began to heal which required me to look at my life and take responsibility for it. looking back at my relationships and my behaviors and actions in them, It was clear that my childhood trauma and wounding, the narcissists I was surrounded by, the relationship I watched my mom in for over 20 years, all contributed to me choosing narcissists for partners over and over.

Of course I did, it’s all I knew. All of my relationships were with narcissists who treated me so poorly and me constantly rationalizing their behavior away or completely blocking it out, which I did well into my 20’s. My inner children could not deal with the abuse so they blocked it out. A coping mechanism I learned in childhood. I would not have been able to survive had I been aware of the sexual abuse going on by my dad and other men up until age 9. But deep down I always knew.

It’s interesting because as I got into my teens, early 20’s, I wanted to go see a therapist badly. I wanted to figure out why I was the way I was and how my childhood affected me. I knew my childhood was chaotic and unstable. It was filled with alcoholism, drug addictions, physical & emotional abuse, and violence in the home. The sexual abuse was uncovered later after my inner children felt safe enough to show me. After I cut contact with every toxic family member I had growing up.

What does Liana Shanti mean to me? How has she helped me to live a better life? It’s so hard to put into words just how much she means to me. From the moment I found her online I instantly knew she was what I didn’t even realize I had been searching for. I had just left my ex and was feeling lost and visionless. I had been using drugs for 6 months straight- something I had never done before. It was always binges for a week or so or weekends, never every single day for 6 months.

I was in a marriage that I wasn’t happy in and knew with every fiber of my being that it was something I shouldn’t have done. (I do understand now why I did it and I don’t hold guilt for my decisions, I learned a lot about how my body is always speaking to me) My body was giving me so many clues and there were so many red flags I ignored. He was showing me all the time. Jealousy, rage outbursts, physical and emotional abuse, violence, and many incidents I knew were not okay. Leaving that relationship was something I had wanted to do for many months before I actually did it. So, why did I stay?

After finding Liana and her programs I began to heal which required me to look at my life and take responsibility for it. looking back at my relationships and my behaviors and actions in them, It was clear that my childhood trauma and wounding, the narcissists I was surrounded by, the relationship I watched my mom in for over 20 years, all contributed to me choosing narcissists for partners over and over.

Of course I did, it’s all I knew. All of my relationships were with narcissists who treated me so poorly and me constantly rationalizing their behavior away or completely blocking it out, which I did well into my 20’s. My inner children could not deal with the abuse so they blocked it out. A coping mechanism I learned in childhood. I would not have been able to survive had I been aware of the sexual abuse going on by my dad and other men up until age 9. But deep down I always knew.

It’s interesting because as I got into my teens, early 20’s, I wanted to go see a therapist badly. I wanted to figure out why I was the way I was and how my childhood affected me. I knew my childhood was chaotic and unstable. It was filled with alcoholism, drug addictions, physical & emotional abuse, and violence in the home. The sexual abuse was uncovered later after my inner children felt safe enough to show me. After I cut contact with every toxic family member I had growing up.

So how did Liana save my life? She GAVE me a life. One with purpose, meaning and passion. A life full of happiness and health. a life surrounded by loving and supportive people. She listened to me and supported me in a way I had never known before. She didn’t do the work for me, I had to do it. But she gave me the tools and gave me something much more valuable- the belief and trust in myself that it was possible.

I never went to a therapist because I found out I didn’t need one. Liana taught me that I already had all the answers inside of me. All I had to do was cultivate a relationship with Jesus and clear away all the garbage that was blocking me. One of the most treasured pieces I will take away from Liana and her teachings is how empowered I’ve become. I grew up feeling powerless and unworthy, but now I know I am worthy and unconditional love is my birthright. Thank you Liana. I am forever grateful.

So how did Liana save my life? She GAVE me a life. One with purpose, meaning and passion. A life full of happiness and health. a life surrounded by loving and supportive people. She listened to me and supported me in a way I had never known before. She didn’t do the work for me, I had to do it. But she gave me the tools and gave me something much more valuable- the belief and trust in myself that it was possible.

I never went to a therapist because I found out I didn’t need one. Liana taught me that I already had all the answers inside of me. All I had to do was cultivate a relationship with Jesus and clear away all the garbage that was blocking me. One of the most treasured pieces I will take away from Liana and her teachings is how empowered I’ve become. I grew up feeling powerless and unworthy, but now I know I am worthy and unconditional love is my birthright. Thank you Liana. I am forever grateful.